Keep this in mind- at any moment, life could explode into the greatest, action adventure, love story with a happy ending imaginable.
The voices start whining and seething, "You were doing so good. You had it all. You were living in the moment.
Told you this wouldn't last long.
Who do you think you are? You thought that it would go on and on, that it would just keep getting better? Ha. Don't you know that's not how life works?
Life is hard.
Stop fighting it.
At first sight of the creeping shadow I say, "I see you! I know you! And I'm not gonna let you in this time." And then some time passes, maybe an hour maybe a day, and I look over my shoulder to check where the shadow is standing, and out of the peripheral I don't see it anywhere.
"Whew! I've sent it away, this time. Maybe it will be gone for good." But in a split second, just before the surge of relief is felt, I realize the shadow is upon me! I catch a horrifying glimpse of it on my back. I let an audible scream leave my throat as I jump up, startled, throwing the chair I was resting on behind me, crashing to the ground, I stumble, and my back spasms as I shudder and jerk trying to shake the darkness of the shadow.
Too late. The shadow had slunk in and made itself at home, feet up on the kitchen table style, laying back into the chair, arms crossed, before I even realized I had left the door unlocked.
The light was flickering within, I could feel the dirt filling in the old grave where my joy and hope had stumbled unsuspectingly, shovel full by shovel full. My newly enlarged heart was feeling tender, but everyday it was unstoppingly pumping 2000 gallons of energy-rich, magic blood life force through my recuperating body.
The culmination of all the changes, doubts, risks, emotions, projections, feelings, hopes, wishes, desires, and longings, swirling in this great energy vortex, at the center, my heart, pumping.
You must save yourself.
Then a fissure in the darkness started to appear, a crack so small that at first I thought perhaps I had imagined it, and then the rush of blinding light streamed in, cracked wide open, and as if I was as light as a feather, I was sucked out into the shining luminescence.
And the darkness disappeared in a heartbeat.
The day opened into the most beautiful day, every picture I took made my heart sing, the beauty felt so good and easy, like it was effortlessly a part of me and no work is necessary to receive the abundance that we are all a part of.
I was able to relax into the knowing that all is good, I am loved and supported, the Universe is on my side.
There is only one person on this earth you can save. There is only one life you can change.
There is only You & the Universe.
Opening to the Ultimate Possibility: Spiritual awakening opens the door to a truly unimaginable possibility. The potential of living a deeply awakened life is so magnificent and so far beyond most of what we see in the world that even when we taste it for ourselves, we often find it hard to accept that life could be this extraordinary.
In order to make room in ourselves for the miraculous to take root, most of us need to uncover, examine and ultimately leave behind a deeply rooted fundamental insistence on a life of limitation.
This deeply rooted and often unconscious cultural cynicism infects even the most dedicated spiritual seekers and subtly holds us back from taking the leap of trust required to embrace the inherent perfection of our true nature.