I was always striving to make IT, you know, make it BIG. That’s why I got into real estate development, I wanted to play with all the rich guys making the big deals. I had moved across the country to open our first west coast office for what had been my dream job and I was traveling back and forth across the country regularly.
I had that moment, in my top floor office with the amazing view overlooking the Puget Sound, where I thought this is IT, I guess I’ve made it, and then like a knife in the gut,
I realized “Oh F*&$, this isn’t IT.”
People say, you can always go back.
I say, "That’s bullshit."
When I left, I thought it was to save my life and to get healthy, I thought it was temporary. I hoped I was going to fall in love and get married. What life had in store for me, however, was something much greater than I could imagine.
I’d always had a nagging sensation that there was more to life than what I was experiencing, but I had thought that I was going to fall in love, marry my husband, and have a happy domestic life. The truth was I was married to my job and had been single for more years then I would admit, not including the occasional affair or casual fling here and there.
After a year of living on the west coast, I hadn’t made any community, and on New Year's Eve, I witnessed a fatal accident. Seeing someone else’s life blood pour out on to the pavement rocked my world. I knew there was a reason I was alive, and if I was still alive, I better figure out immediately what I was here to do, be and to contribute. It had become clear to me that the life I was living, wasn’t much of a life at all.
Friends and family on the other side of the country that I rarely saw or spoke to, no love in my life, no community, barely a reason to get out of bed in the morning. I was so disconnected from myself, I couldn’t tell you if I enjoyed my morning coffee or if I was passionate or inspired by anything which felt scarier than being dead in that moment. I was living a half life. Dead inside walking around going through the motions.
As it turns out my health would be the final catalyst in my making serious life changes. I thought I was just eternally exhausted and then I was diagnosed with an autoimmune disease, my right arm became partially paralyzed, and I was exhibiting the precursors of MS. I saw the writing on the wall. I had to change my life, or die.
I quit smoking. I started cleansing and stopped eating processed foods. I fired my doctor after putting me on meds that made me suicidal and I started devouring books and medical journals on how to heal my body. Healing my body and recovering my mind placed me firmly on the path to complete self discovery.
Here’s the thing, the majority of us are walking around living our lives, hoping that we’re doing it right. The voices in your head that tell you what to do, beat you up for doing it wrong, tell you that you’re not good enough, say that you like this, and you don’t like, aren’t even yours.
You’re so busy living your life you never stopped to ask yourself,
Who am I? What do I like?
What am I doing here this lifetime?
And whose authority am I subscribing to in order to gauge whether or not I’ve accomplished what I'm 'supposed’ to. The scariest thing, is that the majority of us don’t even know when we’re truly happy, or if we are happy at all.
If we find ourselves seeking the meaning of our lives, chances are we are seeking the answer somewhere out there.
When you distinguish what’s good for you based on your own internal gauge, your own personal divining tool becomes the most powerful decision making system available to each of us.
Clarity is what comes with awareness. When you have clarity you know with a distinct quality a surety, that the answer you have been seeking is known, it is within you, and all you must do is to remove the barriers within that have kept you from it. I tell my clients, this doesn’t mean you never make the “wrong” decision again. Or that you don’t do the stupid thing. But you do recognize your choice and you have awareness around what’s driving the choice. Clarity is a choice point, when you have that awareness you can at that moment realize why you are choosing one experience over another, and also choose to have a different experience.
Think of your belief systems like well worn tracks in your brain circuitry. You thoughts and beliefs are like program coding that determine whether love, money, happiness, and success are possibilities in your life. Your beliefs can prevent you from taking action, moving forward, or making different decisions that would create different experiences in your life.
When we change the programming of your brain, its like refreshing a web page with new coding, your life appears differently once new programming is installed and the frame is refreshed.
I believe that science and spirituality are on a collision course to meet each other and I believe that many spiritual concepts will be understood by scientific findings in the years to come. Quantum physics, epigenetics, and neuroscience have drastically changed our understanding of time, space, the human body, and the human mind.
The way the brain changes as a result of mental activity is called neuroplasticity. Science is proving that thinking activity is real, it can be measured in our magnetic fields, and it can be seen on various types of brain imaging. Neuroscience has discovered that our thoughts form first in the frontal lobe then causing electrical impulses in the brain creating chemical effects that can be seen and measured.
When we think, amazing unfathomable creative things take place.
Your thinking changes the makeup of your brain. Your brain will follow the choices and intentions of your mind and change its makeup accordingly.
I strongly believe that each person has a reason for existence. Everything is made up of energy, including us, which means we have a unique resonance pattern making us absolutely integral in the system of things and completely distinctive as human beings and as energy. My work with individuals centers around each person understanding their own exceptional qualities and teaching them the tools to act on this knowledge.
Every person is unique and every person will find happiness, success, and soul purpose in their own unique way- this is true fulfillment and satisfaction.
When you know who you are; when your mission is clear and you burn with the inner fire of unbreakable will; no cold can touch your heart; no deluge can dampen your purpose. You know that you are alive.
- Chief Seattle, Duwamish