It's a myth that we figure it out first and then we move on what we know.
I spent years saying:
If I just knew what I was supposed to be doing, I'd be doing it.
And so I spent years, waiting for my life to begin... until I started doing things, not because I knew how it was going to go from there, or even where I was going and where I was going to end up, but I started doing things that made me feel alive, like I was really living, and life was worth living.
And that's when everything changed, and my "life purpose" began to reveal itself underneath my feet and the path I was walking began to make sense, one step at a time... one step, then another, then another.
Since returning from Cusco, I've received a lot of questions from the community, about how to overcome our fears, hear the voice of our Soul's calling, and actually have the "balls" to start taking action on what we hear.
Its begins with one step, and then another, then another, then another.
I met Maestro Lorenzo Apaza, pictured here, many years ago on my original journey to Peru. At the time he asked if I was a shaman, and when I uncomfortably laughed and responded that I wasn't, he said:
"Well the Mountains are speaking to you." And I knew in that moment what he said was true, and it was as if my whole world had broken open.
I had never identified myself as anything but curious up to that moment, but I had been, if almost secretly, listening to the Earth, the Nature Spirits, and the Mountains. I had been following their guidance, and I had been following through with what I was hearing within me, but I hadn't fully realized it until that moment. I had been interpreting the signs of the Universe, though if almost by accident...
And when I returned from Peru, my secret was out, and I began living so fully in my truth and purpose that my life changed from the inside out. I began to look different, feel different, and BE different, in a way that felt so open and alive, I knew that I had finally figured out "Who I am in this world, and what I am here to do."
But it didn't end there, of course, the "work" is a constant evolution and practice of self love, and continued self love, and learning to love even more, greater, deeper, and forgive, and forgive again.
I've learned that forgiveness is the gateway to joy.
Being in Peru for a second time, I began to actively engage with the ancient teachings, participating in multiple ceremonies, and initiations in the Pampamesayok lineage. My intention was to fully physically embody my truest essence.
I didn't used to be this way, I used to be paralyzed with fear, sick from stress, loveless, clueless, and almost friendless....
Recently, my friend and colleague, Q'orianka and I stayed up late one night talking like school girls... she started describing her first impression of me the day that we met back in a fancy networking event in California.
We were laughing about her description of me... but you know, she told me:
She had been afraid of me. I was intimidating. I was so cool, aloof.
And in my masculine, when she met me that she didn't understand what I was doing at the women's conference where we had met.
She went on to say, I had been cordial and polite, but almost as if I was tolerating the other women around me, with no intention to make friends with anyone, I was there to learn what I needed to learn to be "more successful" in life and business.
That was the person I was projecting on the outside, but on the inside I was longing to be fully expressed in my Soul's true essence. I was craving deep connection, friendship, and meaning in my life, but I didn't know how to show this.
Until I let myself be seen, until I let myself be vulnerable in front of those women. And that was when everything began to change in my life.
I let down my walls, and I shared what it was that I really wanted in life. I wanted love, purpose, a reason for living, and to be fully impassioned in my life.
But there was a time, not that long ago, that I didn't know how to get what I wanted. I just knew that all the things I had been doing weren't working for me, and had not gotten me to happiness.
I began listening to the one voice I had not allowed to be heard, My Heart. One step along the journey at a time, I began living through my heart, not from my head. I began building my relationship with the Divine, the Divine in me, in all, in everything.
And that has made all the difference.
When you surrender to a higher wisdom and higher goal, the divine plan of your life will unfold, naturally. Follow it, even when the obstacles seem insurmountable, and a way will be made.
This is what I have experienced in my own life and this is what I have seen time and time again in the lives of others. I am so eternally grateful and humbled that I get to do this work in the world, and that I am witness to constant miracles in the lives of people, like yourself.
With so much love,
The Q’ero people follow the shamanic way of seeing the Divine in everything, whether it be a plant, flower, river, rock, animal, or another person.
This is not conceptual, we treat everything and everyone with reverence as they are the Divine embodied.
The Q’ero medicine path follows two main routes, that of the “Pampamesayok” and the “Altomesayok". Pampamesayoks source our power and information from the land, and are highly knowledgeable about plant medicine. Altomesayoks have the ability to summon up and receive direct communication, wisdom and healing guidance from the “Apus”- the spirits of the Mountains.
You can be initiated as an Altomesayok either through being struck by lightening or after many years of work at a Pampamesayok and then surviving an arduous & treacherous vision quest to Apu Ausangate. (The snow covered mountain pictured in the video and pictured below.)
Sending you lots of good vibes from Peru, a very special place on earth!