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What if I'm just crazy?

Be who you want, Learning to Love Yourself, Life LessonsChloë Rain
What if I'm just crazy?
I have the nerve to walk my own way, however hard, in my search for reality, rather than climb upon the rattling wagon of wishful illusions.
— Zora Neale Hurston

Grand plans.... I have them. I have told myself I am crazy for them, I have hid them from some because I thought they'd call me lost. Or worse, crush them under their disbelief. I have written my grand plans down, stacks of journals, thousands of pages wear the inked markings of this soul territory, new decades have turned whilst I was writing, I have uttered my dreams in prayers, cried out and demanded them in prayer, then on my knees, humbled, I have begged and wept praying, praying.

Please God show me the way to pray, let me be led by divine will and to know when to surrender my own.

I have bled them on top of the mountain, I have woken to the dawning of a new day and thought, perhaps,
"I am mistaken."

Or I'm just crazy. Or maybe I'm just dumb.

But I'm not dumb, not about everything at least, and I don't mind being crazy. I have grand ideals, and though I've tried to talk myself out of them for decades, for as long as I have had memories.

I wonder now, if I don't try talking myself out of them and I acknowledge, against all sanity, that my grand plans are real and not just craziness, then doesn't that make everything else I've been doing, everything else I've been thinking- the crazy part?

And the grand plan was the only truth all along, and the crazy making was in the covering it up, the disbelief, and the doubt.

Chloë Rain is the Founder of Explore Deeply and the Explore Deeply Movement.

She has had the pleasure of mentoring women and men all over the globe to learn to source their inner power, deepen their relationship to their own guidance, and experience greater love and fulfillment, so they can enjoy the happiness they have always wanted, and have confidence and joy in their lives.

Many of her clients find that their relationships and careers shift dramatically in new and exciting ways after doing this work, creating freedom and fulfillment in their personal and professional lives. To find out more about working with Chloë go → here.

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