You see, I used to be the one with a plan.
I'm not sure who's plan I was working off of, or when I began buying into it, but for as long as I can remember I had been running on someone else's plan.
Someone else's idea of who I should be.
The goal was to somehow attain happiness, but every time I showed up at some milestone of success and achievement, with new shoes on, I never found happiness there.
In fact when I started to get really honest with myself, happiness seemed like the ever elusive golden carrot, to be strived for but never achieved. And love and connection were distant memories, like childhood fables I had once read about in The Brothers Grimm.
You see, my plans weren't working for me any longer. The charade was beginning to fail (along with my health) and I started to see the people around me like dancing puppets, all snagged, entangled, and chained to these ways of doing things that were supposed to lead to happiness and yet what I saw, what I was witnessing around me and in my own life looked and felt nothing like happiness.
Why do people put so much stock into their plans? And why do they make your plans their business!? Why is it that, about three questions in to meeting someone, they want to know WHAT's YOUR PLAN? And how does my plan size up to yours? Who's got the bigger plan? And who's further along with their plans?
To desire to live without a plan and therefore to break all of our societal conventions, there simply must be something wrong.
There must be something wrong with me, because I so strongly desire to feel alive and do only things that make me feel more alive and to really reach out and touch the beauty in the world and grasp the magic of living that I am willing to risk everything in order to feel alive, and BE happy.
I ask you, how are your plans working out?
Have you reached the golden carrot?
Anyone living a truly extra-ordinary life, started in just the same place that you may find yourself, right this minute. Alive, in fear, questioning, wondering…
You see, this moment can be different, if you choose. Tomorrow is a clean slate. The New Year is full of infinite possibilities. It boggles the mind.
You see, your plan, at least the one your soul set up for you, is to live a life truly engaged, alive, inspired, and set on fire. To live in the world as the person you were truly meant to be.
You, the doer of extraordinary things, things only you can do. Experiencing all the beauty that exists in the world, that perhaps you never had the eyes to see before.
You the lover of all things, making real gestures of grandeur, marked with hope and loving with utter open abandon.
Thank you for seeking, thank you for connecting with me here, thank you for daring to be true to you.
Thank you for walking with me on this journey.
With Love, Chloë
It’s not crazy to want to be free, or to craft movies that change the world, or work towards bringing nutrition to a health-starved country, or say the things you need to say and help the people you need to help. It’s not crazy to want to be seen, heard, recognized and maybe even celebrated all while having the time of your life. It’s not crazy to want an amazing, true life. Really, it’s crazy to deny the love that lives within you. Tama Kieves