if today was my last day alive...

If today was my last day alive

I'd be glad that I admired the shadows on the beach the clouds make as they pass overhead

I'd not regret that ginger and molasses cookie I ate after lunch

I'd not regret saving the bee from the store front window.

I'd smile that I wore a skirt with flip flops and my hair long with bare skin and bare lashes, and no underwear

If today were my last day alive

I'd miss that warm embrace of my friend from earlier today but be glad I hugged him both coming and going and told him what a difference he'd made in my life

I’d hope I get to take with me to the other side, my memory of the three shades of blue I'd only just noticed today... 

One silvery blue, the reflection of the sky in the water

Two the blue at the horizon of the earth and clouds

Three the color of the wide open sky above the clouds

I can find no words to describe my new awareness of both heaven and earth

If today was my last day in this body

I'd be glad I learned to love life before it ended

And if I live beyond this moment I will cherish each day as if I'd been born every morning awake with new eyes

And a greater capacity to hug

And a great capacity to love

As if I'd been given a second chance, or brought back from the dead

Why am I alive?

A Journey into the Miracle of Your Awakened Awareness

Opening to the Ultimate Possibility: Spiritual awakening opens the door to a truly unimaginable possibility. The potential of living a deeply awakened life is so magnificent and so far beyond most of what we see in the world that even when we taste it for ourselves, we often find it hard to accept that life could be this extraordinary.

In order to make room in ourselves for the miraculous to take root, most of us need to uncover, examine and ultimately leave behind a deeply rooted fundamental insistence on a life of limitation.

This deeply rooted and often unconscious cultural cynicism infects even the most dedicated spiritual seekers and subtly holds us back from taking the leap of trust required to embrace the inherent perfection of our true nature.

Learn the techniques and receive the support needed to let go of all imposed doubt and limitation and step into a consciousness of unlimited possibility.

Chloë Rain

Chloë Rain is a spiritual director and ceremonial guide whose work is rooted in the initiatory cycles of nature and the deep intelligence of living earth traditions. After more than a decade of apprenticeship within North and South American medicine lineages — and graduate research in the Arctic Circle exploring sacred landscape and Indigenous cosmology through a Master’s degree in Indigenous Studies — her work now continues from a small island in the Cyclades in the heart of the Aegean Sea.

She offers one-to-one spiritual direction and longer-term mentorship for those navigating profound change, life transitions, and soul alignment.


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