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Drum Journey to the Spirit of the North : Connection to the Element of Water

Video, Shamanic Drum JourneyChloë Rain
Shamanic Drum Journey to Connect with the Spirit of the North and the Spirit of Water

I've been feeling the inspiration to create a number of shamanic drum journeys out of doors and yesterday Mother Nature gave me a beautiful nudge and the opportunity to create a journey for you to connect with the Spirit of the North and the Spirit of Water.

I am going to be experimenting with this medium and creating more drum journeys as I am inspired by Mother Nature all around.

If you've never heard of shamanic drum journeys and their uses or benefits, this is not an instructional video..... so maybe this isn't the very best place to start. I do hope to be writing some articles in the near future explaining more of the basics and importance of shamanic practices and how they can help us with our wellness.  

The video is about 18 minutes long and gives you some introduction and instructions, you may want to make time this weekend to journey to the Spirit of Winter and glean any last insights as we move into the Spring Equinox in the Northern Hemisphere on Monday the 20th!

If you are curious about shamanic drum journeys and what purpose they may serve in your life and wellness, I welcome you to write me with your questions.

The idea of doing virtual drum journeys and attempting to include some nature elements has been swirling around me for a little while, so this was my first inspired attempt and I'm excited to share it with you! All the footage was taken on my land in the Shenandoah Valley, Virginia, Skywater Hollow Retreat.

I hope this journey serves you.

Please let me know if you have any questions about shamanic journeying or any of the work that I do, you can always connect with me at chloe@exploredeeply.com.

On my land at Skywater Hollow Retreat in the Shenandoah Valley.

On my land at Skywater Hollow Retreat in the Shenandoah Valley.

If you like this video and you'd like to see more virtual journeys like this one, please let me know and include any requests you may have on subjects or needs or curiosities.

May we all walk in beauty.

Sharing some pictures of sunrise, morning snow on the blossoming Quince trees.... INJOY!

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The Price We Pay for Spiritual Growth

Life Lessons, Spiritual SignificanceGuest Writer
The Price we Pay for Negative Emotions

Most the time we think that emotions sweep over us and overwhelm us, and they do. But we also often live in lingering states: a constant state of fear, or of emotional flatness, or anger, or resentment, or grieving, or cynicism. At that point we have crossed over from being overtaken by a wave of emotion and into agreeing to live in a state of emotion. That's when we enter into an agreement to pay the cost. 

When I live in the ongoing state of fear or anger or cynicism, I am agreeing to pay a price in energy. The shamanic term for energy is power. In order to live inside the power of fear, I give up another kind of power as payment.

The price of fear is intimacy. 
The price of certainty is wonder. 
The price of greed is patience, and since beauty relies on patience, the price of greed is beauty.
The price of arrogance is surprise.
The price of cynicism is open-armed love. Since open-armed love includes grieving, because grief is a form of love, the price of cynicism is stifled grief, and since grief is one of the main lubricants on the hinges of the doors to Spirit, the price of cynicism is connection to Spirit. 

On it goes. 

Shamanic thinking tells us good news: That equation can be reversed by replacing the word "price" with the word "medicine." 

The medicine for fear is intimacy. 
The medicine for certainty is wonder. 
The medicine for greed is patience, and since beauty relies on patience, the medicine for greed is beauty.
The medicine for arrogance is surprise.
The medicine for cynicism is open-armed love, and since open armed love includes proper grieving, prayers that summon tears are medicine for cynicism.

We are in a time period in which more and more people are taking a hard look at the price we pay for the "normal" that has been programmed into us. More and more people are understanding that the price is too high for living a life, as archetypal psychologist James Hillman said, "happily in “the system of rip-off economics [that] promotes its communal senselessness by substituting "more" for "beyond.” 

The energies of fear, arrogance, greed and cynicism are programmed into us so deeply that it takes great commitment to let go of them. These old energies rise up with great ferocity when we turn our attention toward authentic spiritual power, and we hear these old energies as voices of self-doubt, embarrassment, self-deprecation, and sometimes outright shame. It's helpful to hear these negative voices as a parasite in you screaming for you NOT to bring the medicine. The medicine is perceived as discomfort by the parasite, who wants you to stay in a state of disempowerment, so it can continue to feed on you. 

The surrealist painter Salvador Dali said, "The only difference between me and a madman is that I'm not mad." What he meant (I hope) is that by working honestly with his artistic energies (which is the same work in many ways as working your spiritual power) he learned to trade the negative price for the Medicine.

Another way to say this is, "The difference between a mental breakdown and an opening of the spiritual path is discipline and courage."

Well, that's how I see it. 

A note from Jaime Meyer: I am indebted to Jose Luis Stevens for stimulating many of the ideas in this piece.  

Reposted with permission, go here to read the original article "The Price For Gaining Spiritual Power".


Jamie shares a prayer with us he hopes we'll find useful:

Great Spirit,
I have lived smaller than I want to live.
I have listened to those voices that shrink me.
I am ready
to trade the price I have been paying
to stay disempowered and disconnected from Spirit.
I am ready
to trade for the Medicine.
The light grows across the face of the moon.
The sun rises stronger each day from the south.
The ice releases its grip on the shore. 
The land awakens and revives.
Bring this medicine to me
So that I may stand strong in this world.

I have something to accomplish in this life
And I am so grateful that you are here always to help me.


Jamie Meyer

Jaime Meyer | Shamanic Practitioner | Author | Teacher

Jamie's popular book Drumming The Soul Awake is an account of his journey to become an urban shamanic healer. His varied background includes earning a Masters Degree in Theology and the Arts and cross cultural studies with a variety of shamanic teachers since 1983.

Jamie continues to study with the Shipibo people of the Upper Amazon in Peru - an extension of his studies with Jose and Lena Stevens of The Power Path School of Shamanism. He completed a two-year Celtic Shamanism training with Tom Cowan. He has also studied with Ailo Gaup, Martin Prechtel, and Sandra Ingerman, among others. He is the president and board of directors of the international Society of Shamanic Practitioners.

He co-founded the first theatre in the world for the Hmong community (a refugee population from Laos and Vietnam) and managed it for ten years, mentoring dozens of writers and scores of actors, and playing to 200,000 Hmong and non-Hmong people in various cities, including in refugee camps in Thailand.

Find out more about Jamie and his teachings here: www.drummingthesoulawake.com.

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#1 Energetic Tool to Feel Happy & Grounded

Healing, Nature, VideoChloë Rain

Explore Deeply Session: #1 Energetic Tool to Self-Heal, Feel Happy, Connected, & Grounded

I encourage you to write me with your questions and I will answer them in upcoming Explore Deeply Sessions {Vlog}.  xoxo


There are times when our world feels like it is breaking down and dissolving right in front of our eyes and we might feel like it is totally out of our control.

As we are stripped of things we once thought were important, as we lose things, precious things, we begin to understand that at the core of our being we are worthy of existence, not because of what we do or what we have, but because of who we are.

Your life and the value you bring to the world through your own self expression and creativity are the most priceless possessions that no one and no thing can ever take from you.

There is no other speck of stardust in the Universe just like you.

No one else thinks your thoughts, feels your feelings, has your desires, or is capable of doing the things you do, in the way that you and only you do them.

When we explore deeply our reason for existence, we begin to know our own self-worth in a way that we've never contemplated or experienced before.

The essence of gratitude, is appreciation for life in and of itself. Your life matters, because you are you, and no one else can do what you are here to do. Since you are still alive, your life has a reason and a purpose and if there is still breath in your lungs, you haven't fulfilled your mission on earth yet.

Time to figure out what you are still doing here and go for it. When you find yourself asking the question,"What is my purpose for being alive?"

Know, that if there is still breath in your lungs, you have a purpose. There is a reason for your existence.

So often, people feel like "there's got to be more to life..."

Maybe it feels like you’re missing out on your potential in life, career, or maybe you haven’t found the right partner in love… 

You need to know that your life purpose exists and who you are serves a greater purpose in this world. 

How do I know about this? 

...from my unique challenges in life, starting from when I almost died in an accident, then later was diagnosed with a debilitating auto-immune disease, and risked every thing I had ever created in order to recover my health and ultimately my happiness. 

I learned teachable techniques that helped me to grow a successful business which serves people around the world, and create a life filled with love, purpose, adventure, and miracles.  

These are the same techniques I've taught normal people just like you and I to become successful entrepreneurs and award winning artists, and I'd like to teach you how to start finding and restoring your life purpose too. I can promise that you will never look at life the same way again.

Whether you are considering making a life transition and don't know where to begin, or stuck in the same self-defeating patterns year after year, Life Coaching offers unparalleled results in creating lasting transformation.

Why not set up a free 30 minute consultation to see how this potent form of healing could make a difference in your life? Schedule a Free Consultation Today or Learn More Here.

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How do I know if I should stay in a relationship, career, job, place, OR should I go?

Life Lessons, VideoChloë Rain

Should I Stay or Should I Go? How to Know whether or not to leave a relationship, job, career, or place?

I encourage you to write me with your questions at and I will answer them in upcoming Explore Deeply Sessions {Vlog}.


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New Moon Solar Eclipse : A Spiritual Perspective

Spiritual SignificanceGuest Writer
New Moon Solar Eclipse Meaning

Out of all the cosmic forces in the sky, the Moon is one of the most powerful. If the Moon is powerful enough to effect an entire ocean, just think about what it can do to our own bodies and energy, especially since we are made mostly of water.

The Moon holds many mysteries and secrets and as it moves from the New Moon to the Full Moon you may be able to feel the subtle energies playing out in your life. There is nothing subtle about an Eclipse however, and this energy is likely to bring massive changes and a new wave of energy.

Eclipses open a portal into a new energetic pathway, so it is important to take advantage of them when they do arrive.

Earlier this month on February 11, we had a Full Moon Lunar Eclipse, which was all about endings, letting go and clearing out the past. This energy has still been lingering but will shift as the New Moon Solar Eclipse energy takes over.

If Lunar Eclipses are all about endings, Solar Eclipses are all about new beginnings. Whatever emotions or events were stirred earlier this month are likely to melt away and shift in a new direction as February draws to a close.

This Solar Eclipse is the first of the year and is going to set the tone and energy for the months ahead. In fact, whatever energy transpires on this Eclipse is likely to create a theme that will last until the next Solar Eclipse on August 21st.

Energetically, the Universe has been calling on all of us to move through a process of endings. To some extent, we have all been called on by the Universe in different ways to shed the old in order to make way for the new. Perhaps you have even noticed this constant theme of “death and rebirth” through the last 12 months and the breaking away of old thoughts, beliefs and ideas.

The Lunar Eclipse earlier this month was in many ways the tipping point of all of this energy. Lunar Eclipses are always viewed in astrology as being deeply transformative times that can bring abrupt and sudden change. While this is true, there is another side to Eclipses that is important to remember. Eclipses are like the cosmic helping hand of the Universe. Imagine the energy of an Eclipse like a Universal hand that reaches down from the heavens and puts you where you need to be.

This place may not be where you want to be, or may not be where you thought you would end up, but it is definitely where you need to be.

The good thing about Eclipses is that generally you can trust the direction they are guiding you in. Eclipses bring about almost fated events that are part of the cosmic plan and written just for you. Whatever needed to be cleared from your life has likely already started to melt away and perhaps, even through the chaos of it all, you are starting to feel a certain amount of relief.

The New Moon Solar Eclipse on February 26, is definitely going to be something to look forward to. This Eclipse is going to bring a wave of new energy that will help all of us to start looking ahead to the new.

Whatever has been cleared from your life in recent months is now dissipating and the New Moon Solar Eclipse will help you to get an idea of what new chapter lies ahead.

For this reason, the Solar Eclipse is the perfect time to start writing down your hopes, dreams and wishes. The energy for manifesting is going to be extremely high at this time, so definitely use this to your advantage.

When it comes to manifesting however, sometimes it is best to focus on what feelings you want to create for this new chapter, rather than physical or material items. Use this time now in order to get clearer about what you truly want and why you truly want it. Perhaps it is also time to think about what you want to work on and give your attention to for the year ahead.

In the coming weeks, allow the old to be stripped and melted away and start looking ahead into the new.

It has been a long cycle of endings for many of us, but this is now coming to an end and the energy to create the new is now here.

Forever Conscious: Intuitive Astrology

For more details about the Astrological effect of this particular Solar Eclipse I highly recommend The Power Path School of Shamanism Moon Updates.

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How Do I Move Beyond FEAR?

Healing, Life Lessons, VideoChloë Rain

Explore Deeply Session: How to Overcome Your FEAR!

This video is about moving beyond your FEAR, so that you create change in your life and live courageously.  

I encourage you to write me with your questions at chloe@exploredeeply.com or join one of the 21 Day programs to help you clear belief systems that keep you stuck in fear and open you up to receive more love and know your own worthiness.

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That Which is to Give Light Must Endure Burning

Inspiring, Landscape, Photography, NatureChloë Rain
That which is to give Light must endure burning.
— Viktor Frankl

“Don't aim at success. The more you aim at it and make it a target, the more you are going to miss it.

For success, like happiness, cannot be pursued; it must ensue, and it only does so as the unintended side effect of one's personal dedication to a cause greater than oneself or as the by-product of one's surrender to a person other than oneself.

Happiness must happen, and the same holds for success: you have to let it happen by not caring about it. I want you to listen to what your conscience commands you to do and go on to carry it out to the best of your knowledge.

Then you will live to see that in the long-run—in the long-run, I say!—success will follow you precisely because you had forgotten to think about it” 

― Viktor E. Frankl, Man's Search for Meaning

 

“Everything can be taken from a man but one thing: the last of the human freedoms—to choose one’s attitude in any given set of circumstances, to choose one’s own way.” 

“The attempt to develop a sense of humor and to see things in a humorous light is some kind of a trick learned while mastering the art of living.”

“Love is the only way to grasp another human being in the innermost core of his personality.

No one can become fully aware of the very essence of another human being unless he loves him.

By his love he is enabled to see the essential traits and features in the beloved person; and even more, he sees that which is potential in him, which is not yet actualized but yet ought to be actualized.

Furthermore, by his love, the loving person enables the beloved person to actualize these potentialities. By making him aware of what he can be and of what he should become, he makes these potentialities come true.” 


So often, people feel like "there's got to be more to life..."

Maybe it feels like you’re missing out on your potential in life, career, or maybe you haven’t found the right partner in love… 

You need to know that your life purpose exists and who you are serves a greater purpose in this world. 

How do I know about this? 

...from my unique challenges in life, beginning with my 30 year battle with depression, to when I almost died in an accident and was permanently injured, to when I was diagnosed with a debilitating auto-immune disease, and risked every thing I had ever created in order to recover my health and ultimately my happiness. 

I learned teachable techniques that helped me to grow a successful business which serves people around the world, and live a life filled with love, purpose, adventure, and miracles.  

The same techniques I've used to create a life worth living, I have taught to many people who have then become successful in life, love, and career; creative entrepreneurs and award winning artists, and I'd like to teach you how to start finding and restoring your life purpose too. I can promise that you will never look at life the same way again.

Whether you are considering making a life transition and don't know where to begin, or stuck in the same self-defeating patterns year after year, life coaching offers unparalleled results in creating lasting transformation.

Why not set up a free 30 minute consultation to see how this potent form of healing could make a difference in your life? Schedule a Free Consultation Today or Learn More Here.

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To all the Men Who Never Loved Me, Thank You.

Be who you want, Inspiring, Poetry, Rites of Passage, TravelChloë Rain
I guess its funny, this two-fold irony, My greatest victory was my own defeat.
— Roo Panes

Thank you, to all the men who never claimed me.

Thank you, to all the men who never matched me.

Thank you, to all the men who couldn't keep me.

Thank you, to all the men who left me.

Thank you, to all the men who never loved me.

To Each and Every One of You, I Thank You.

I send you blessings.

For you have blessed me with the greatest love of of all time.

If it wasn't for you, I wouldn't have kept searching. I wouldn't have kept looking.

I wouldn't have kept going to the next edge. 

I wouldn't have kept jumping.

I wouldn't have found what I was looking for.

The one I have been seeking since I learned to seek something outside of myself. 

To all of you, your collective loving, your integrated presence across my life's timeline, and your inevitable leaving, has changed me, molded me, burned me, healed me.

You are imprinted on my soul.

I keep searching, looking, seeking, going. The world spins and I try to out spin it.

The smaller the world gets, the faster I want to see it all, feel it all,

BE it all.

Make it ALL,

ONE.


To the one who introduced me to sushi and jade.

Thank you.

To the one who said, I will never love you the way you need to be loved.

And left.

Thank you.

The tragedy of my 30s has become the miracle of my existence."Mutiny!" Cried my breaking heart!

Then Insurgence, Riot, Revolt.

Who's revolution is this anyway? 

And Who is listening to this evolutionary battle cry? and Who is calling for it?

The ONE.

Internal rebellion, radical external alteration.

Complete metamorphosis.

A total SHAKEDOWN.

A total BREAKDOWN.

The ONE.

To the one who introduced me to surfing, and then left me on the beach alone, to contemplate my own bravery. Thank you.

To the one who introduced me to Dubstep and Skrillex and Flux Pavilion with speakers that wanted to break my eardrums, and teased me in close spaces that made me wet with tears of laughter and wanting, You.

Thank you.

"Leave the past behind.

Just walk away.

When it's over and my heartbreaks, and the Cracks begin to show.

Just walk away."

To the one who reintroduced me to orgasm after years of of broken hearted loveless sex, in the absence of trust and loving presence.

You helped bring me back to myself and I wanted to come.I heard, someone within me say clearly and loudly, over all the other ugly voices.I am not damaged goods.

YES. YES. YES. YES. OH MY GOD. YES.

Thank you.

To the ones who never even tried to make me quiver and cum, wow, what you missed.

To the one who could not look me in the eye, as he said Goodbye. Maybe next lifetime. Not this time, kid. 

To the one who picked me up, brought me home, and dared to make me happy. Thank you.

To my superhero in his spiderman underwear, I've got the sun in my heart now. Thank you.

To the one who grabbed my hips and drew me into his mouth and I recalled what if felt like to be wanted. Thank you.

To the one who laid beside me and played Claude Debussy, "Claire de lune", as I closed my eyes, wanting more...

I wished the ticking of time would stop on each piano note and wistfully I wanted that I could stay alive in those notes forevermore. I remembered, then, that feeling alive, is a different quality than writing about being alive.Thank you.

For every time, the words

"I'm not the ONE."

"You are not the ONE."

"I'm sorry we are not meant to be together."

Have been spoken.

Have been written.

To me.

My trembling heart, has grown wings.

and I have taken flight on the trade winds of sobbing storms

My swelling heart grew each time

A greater wingspan, and each time I took a greater leap at the edge of the unknown.

I have taught myself not to clutch and cling on the way down, knowing now that the Coriolis effect will hoist my weeping heart, in the perfection of physics and that unwavering deflection reaction.

And the wind in the valley will catch the beat of my wings, spinning me in new directions.

No longer the downward spiral, but the ascension of emotion, spirit, body, desire.

Integration. Oh, Beautiful Science.

The doldrums are harder to predict. Sometimes I am stuck, my sails depleted, for for many weeks waiting for a proper wind.

I am struck down by the irregular storms and broken by random and periodic emotional squalls, that clear, and leave a vast empty silence in their wake.

Then the LONGING begins to pick up again... and I am propelled forward, by some force greater than myself.

To all the Men, who never loved me, what can I say?

You were not the ONE.

On the mountain top. Temple of the Moon, Cusco, Peru. September 29, 2015.

I am.

I was. I will be. I am.

Again and again and again. I am coming. I am Home. I am wanting. I am. Desire. I am fire. And, I am the ONE. Again and again and again.The greatest love of all time. I am, that I am. For all these things, I am, grateful.

For true happiness is having wings and my greatest victory has been through my own defeat.

Dedicated to THE ONE.

 
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The meeting of two personalities is like the contact of two chemical substances: if there is any reaction, both are transformed.
— Carl Jung

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This Much I Do Remember

PoetryGuest Writer
This Much I do Remember Billy Collins

by Billy Collins

It was after dinner.
You were talking to me across the table
about something or other,
a greyhound you had seen that day
or a song you liked,

and I was looking past you
over your bare shoulder
at the three oranges lying
on the kitchen counter
next to the small electric bean grinder,
which was also orange,
and the orange and white cruets for vinegar and oil.

Alll of which converged
into a random still life,
so fastened together by the hasp of color,
and so fixed behind the animated
foreground of your
talking and smiling,
gesturing and pouring wine,
and the camber of you shoulders

that I could feel it being painted within me,
brushed on the wall of my skull,
while the tone of your voice
lifted and fell in its flight,
and the three oranges
remained fixed on the counter
the way that stars are said
to be fixed in the universe.

Then all of the moments of the past
began to line up behind that moment
and all of the moments to come
assembled in front of it in a long row,
giving me reason to believe
that this was a moment I had rescued
from millions that rush out of sight
into a darkness behind the eyes.

Even after I have forgotten what year it is,
my middle name,
and the meaning of money,
I will still carry in my pocket
the small coin of that moment,
minted in the kingdom
that we pace through every day.

 
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Dating in the Modern Age: Let's Not Pretend We Are in Love

Guest Writer, Creative Feature, PoetryElle Farmand
Dating in the Modern Age : Lets not pretend we are in love : Explore Deeply Chloe Rain

In today's culture of hooking up and causal relationships, where the theme, no matter what happens, is "Be cool."  Another perspective:

Let's not. 


Let's not get to know each other. Let's not learn our favorite colors and favorite flowers. Let's not try and comprehend each other's problems. Let's not remember our secrets. Let's not make memories that will last.

Let's not pretend we are in love when we are both far from it.

Let's not make promises. Let's not apologize when we have nothing to offer in return. Let's not make plans for the future. Let's not ask how we feel inside. Let's not ask what we do when we are alone and without each other. Let's not ask if we can trust each other.

Let's not call it making love.

Let's hurt each other because we can't trust anyone.

Let's close our hearts, and only remember the past. Let's forget the future. Let's pollute the present and smoke through it so it all becomes a blur. Let’s hold each other’s hands as we walk to places that aren’t “ours”, where we aren’t recognized or talked about. Let’s walk in silence because our words only waste our breaths.

Let's fuck. Let’s eat and blow, and puff on that last cigarette. Let’s turn the music up so we can’t hear each other. Let’s get high on the weed we spent all our savings on.

Let's see others and not be exclusive. Let's be undefined.

Let’s stay in the dark where no one can see us, touch us, tell us we aren’t right for each other. Let’s stay in the dark under the blanket, above the sheet that covers the bloodstained mattress where other women slept. Let’s stay in the dark where we can lie to each other as we sweat and taste the salt as our lips intertwine.

Let’s shut off the lights so we don’t have to learn each other’s expressions or see the betrayal in each other's eyes. Let’s close our eyes together. Let’s not wake each other so we can slip on our clothes and leave without goodbye. Let’s leave each other behind so we don’t wait with expectation.

Let’s only come back if our bodies tell us to. Let’s not wait for each other, or say if we are coming back, where we left off.

Let’s not call or answer.

Let’s not introduce each other as significant others and couples or boyfriends or girlfriends. Let’s not meet the parents, the friends, the neighbors that see us in and out before midnight and right before dawn.

Let’s not let anyone else know about our lie. Let’s not care about the world we corrupt, the souls we harm, the hearts we break.

Let's just be until the Universe pulls us apart and we inevitably break and return to our lonely selves.

Let’s be, until the skies shatter and the earth falls and the ground beneath us disappears.

Let's be betrayers. Let’s be unbreakable. Let's be lovers. Let's fly together to sinful places where no one can find us.


ELLE | Singer | Writer

Born and raised in Tehran, Iran, Elle is a singer, writer, performer, dancer, and creative. She is an explorer of freedom and artistry. She sings in her mother tongue, Farsi (Persian), French and English. She blends the old with the new, with a sense of nostalgia, but also with love and joy. Growing up, she didn't know she was being raised by a mother whose dream of becoming a singer never became a reality. Years after immigrating to the United States, Elle took up voice lessons and now singing is her passion.

"I come from a country of broken rules, arbitrary rules. A country where guards break into homes and demand answers to the most private matters.

A country of unsolicited interrogations. A country of crushed dreams. A country where women are not allowed to sing."

Today I break silence everyday. I sing in front of strangers, family and friends. I write and speak in an attempt to break the habit of accepting all I was forbidden to do growing up. I sing to free my censored soul, for my mother who wanted to be a singer but was forbidden. I break silence in an attempt to awaken banned dreams and emerging dreams.

"When I am not singing, I write. When I am not writing, I dance. When I am not dancing, I imagine myself a bird and fly."

"ELLE CAN TELL A TRAGIC LOVE STORY WITH A SINGLE NOTE." - INDUSTRIAL STRENGTH RECORDS
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