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Why am I alive?

There are times when our world feels like it is breaking down and dissolving right in front of our eyes and we might feel like it is totally out of our control.

As we are stripped of things we once thought were important, as we lose things, precious things, we begin to understand that at the core of our being we are worthy of existence, not because of what we do or what we have, but because of who we are.

Your life and the value you bring to the world through your own self expression and creativity are the most priceless possessions that no one and no thing can ever take from you.

There is no other speck of stardust in the Universe just like you.

No one else thinks your thoughts, feels your feelings, has your desires, or is capable of doing the things you do, in the way that you and only you do them.

When we explore deeply our reason for existence, we begin to know our own self-worth in a way that we've never contemplated or experienced before.

The essence of gratitude, is appreciation for life in and of itself. Your life matters, because you are you, and no one else can do what you are here to do. Since you are still alive, your life has a reason and a purpose and if there is still breath in your lungs, you haven't fulfilled your mission on earth yet.

Time to figure out what you are still doing here and go for it. When you find yourself asking the question,"Why am I Alive?"

Know, that if there is still breath in your lungs, you have a purpose.There is a reason for your existence.

So often, people feel like "there's got to be more to life..."

Maybe it feels like you’re missing out on your potential in life, career, or maybe you haven’t found the right partner in love… 

You need to know that your life purpose exists and who you are serves a greater purpose in this world. 

How do I know about this? 

...from my unique challenges in life, starting from when I almost died in an accident, then later was diagnosed with an incurable auto-immune disease, and lost everything I had ever earned in order to recover my health and ultimately my happiness. 

I learned teachable techniques that helped me to grow a successful business which serves people around the world, and create a life filled with love, purpose, adventure, and miracles.  

These are the same techniques I've taught normal people just like you and I to become successful entrepreneurs and award winning artists, and I'd like to teach you how to start finding and restoring your life purpose too. 

I can promise that you will never look at life the same way again.

When you find yourself wondering who you are and why you are here, know that this is one of the most important paths of inquiry one can take as a human being on earth.

 

 

At your fullest potential, your simplest form...with no fears...

Who are you?

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Listen to the guided meditation above, where you will connect with your authentic self and receive clarity and renewed enthusiasm for living. (Less than 26 minutes in entirety.) You can also download the audio to listen on your own time or read through the questions below in thoughtfulness.

May you be blessed with clarity.

Turn your attention inward...even more deeply inside...to find your authentic self.

What is most important to you in life? What do you value? What makes you happy? What makes you smile? Can you remember the last time you laughed?

Now consider what makes you who you are. Finding your authentic self involves learning who you truly are. Your authentic self is the real you, the person you are truly meant to be. Your authentic self is the person you are at your core, the person you can be if nothing holds you back.

Imagine the person you believe yourself to be right now. Now imagine you could strip away all the things that hold you back from your full potential. Imagine self-doubt dissolving...being replaced with confidence and self-assurance. Imagine all the things that get in the way of success...such as circumstances, lack of resources, lack of forgiveness, illness, baggage from the past...anything that is holding this person back in any way at all...

See these problems dissolving...disappearing...going away...

Now imagine yourself, standing in the empty room. What is left? Who are you when all those barriers are stripped away?

This person is you. Imagine who you are at the core...the pure character that is left when there is nothing to get in the way of complete self-expression.

Think of your desires...what motivates you? What drives you to get out of bed in the morning? What interests you and stirs your heart?

Think about your personality and your personal identity... think about the characteristics that are left when all barriers are removed and all fears have gone away.

At your fullest potential, your simplest form...with no fears...who are you?

Think about your energy...

Imagine something that makes you feel happy...what is it?

Think of some things you enjoy...things that you like to do...

Think about all the characteristics of the person who is left when all barriers and fears are removed.

Now create one final picture in your mind. Imagine, in as much detail as you can, the person you want to be. Imagine your ideal self...

How would this person behave? What does this person, your authentic self, value? What motivates this ideal self? What personal characteristics are present in this ideal version of you? Imagine all the details of the person you most want to be.

The image in your mind right now, of this ideal person, is YOU.

This is your authentic self. This is who you are. At the core, beneath all of life's getting in the way...this is you.

Now allow yourself to step inside this image, and fully become this person. Become who you are.

For this moment, just be...simply be your authentic self.

You have always been this person...you always will be your authentic self...a positive, confident person. Underneath the challenges, the baggage, the demands of living life...this is the real you that will always be with you.

Keep the image of your authentic self with you as you go about the rest of your day. Express this true self...and allow you to simply be you.

Thank you for being you. Thank you for joining me on this journey.

In love and service,

 
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Why am I alive? The Search for Self and the Meaning of Life : Explore Deeply a Spiritual Journey: Why am I Alive- 30 Years of Depression Turns Into Somthing Beautiful A Life Worth Living Chloe Rain Explore Deeply I am done with depression

I found myself wondering, Why am I alive?

Its New Years Eve in Seattle.

I had spent my first Christmas on the west coast, cut down and decorated a 10 and a half foot Christmas tree, watched "Its a Wonderful Life" several times, and spent the night on the couch Christmas Eve at my Aunt and Uncle's home north of the city. I didn't fly back to the east coast to be with my parents for Christmas, (I'm an only child), mainly because I was exhausted by all the plane travel I was doing on a weekly basis for work. My exhaustion was actually extremely severe at the time and what I didn't know and would find out months later, was that I was suffering from an autoimmune disease.

My body was attacking itself.

I spent most of the Christmas Holiday sleeping.

It was New Year's Eve and I had been invited to a party by one of the only persons I knew in Seattle, my hair stylist. I didn't know the hosts well and had actually never spent time with Robin and Ray on a social level, in fact had never met my acquaintances' partner.  I remember Robin saying when he invited me to their house, "you know everyone's going to be gay, right?" I had been single for more than half a decade and I thought, "I don't freaking care, Thank God I wont be alone on New Year's Eve."  

New Year's Eve was actually a beautiful day of sunshine in Seattle.

I got in my car to go get a host gift for the party later that night, down the hill from me I had discovered this gorgeous little craftsman style renovation that turned out to be a 3 generation collaboration hand welded whiskey distillery.  I thought a bottle of nice whiskey would be an appropriate host gift.

I took a residential street off the back of the hill in my neighborhood. No one ever mentions the steep terrain in the city of Seattle, San Francisco is known for its precipitous hills, Seattle for the grey skies, no one ever mentions the massive slopes and pitches in the city and the awe inspiring sunsets surrounding the Puget Sound. I came to a stop sign and looked to my right and then to my left and saw a human body smeared across the pavement.

Time warps. I leave my seat behind the steering wheel so fast that my car begins to roll and I get back in to throw on my parking brake.

She is laying there.  

Head first into the pavement, her face is obscured by her helmet and her neck and body are crumpled and piled behind the point of impact of her head.  A bicycle accident, but I don't remember seeing her bicycle.  I will never forget seeing the first drop of blood land on the pavement falling from her mouth.  And then the pool of blood that would form under her still obscured face.  Blood is black and thick outside of the body, thick and black even against the dark pavement.  She wasn't breathing at first, because I remember when her breathing began again.

There aren't words to describe a breath like that, it's the death breath.

The unconscious breath that happens when your body has gone into pure fight for survival. The breath that happens when you are precisely at the point that if you do not take another breath, there will be no more breaths in this lifetime. Blood and breath. Blood and breath. Blood. I'm paralyzed a few steps away from her, other people are talking to her, someone made the "call 911" command.

I'm standing there looking at her arms.  Her arms are thrown about her helmet like pieces of a rag doll puzzle that came apart, broken, twisted, distinctly unnatural. I remember this scene, it feels familiar, but not like deja vu.  In the time warp, my body is nailed to the pavement, as if time got sucked into my mouth and time is so heavy inside my body that it's rendered me immovable.  

No one has moved her, because it's obvious that her head, neck, and body are traumatically dissociated.  I'm not sure how much time goes by, but I'm not helping at all. I get back in my car and drive through the intersection and park on the next block. I watch the ambulance arrive, I can't see her anymore, I don't see how they pick her up off the pavement. I wait for them to turn on the lights and pull away. Time goes by. I think maybe they are stabilizing her. Time goes by.  They never turn on the lights. Time goes by. The ambulance pulls away. They never turn on the lights or the sirens.  I follow the ambulance down the street, it pulls into traffic and goes over the bridge to Fremont. They never turn on the lights. They never turn on the  siren.

I pull off to the side of the road again and lose it. Sobbing hysterically I call the only person I know in Seattle, he doesn't answer. Then I call my mom in Virginia. I'm losing it, sobbing and crying but I manage to say "Mom, its not me. I'm not hurt."  I cry hysterically. Time goes by.

7 years prior, I had been in a serious motorcycle accident and had totaled my motorcycle when I hit a patch of gravel in a 90 degree off ramp and smashed the guardrail going about 40 mph.  I  broke both my arms and mangled my full facial helmet, but suffered no injuries to my face.  I had 2 surgeries on each arm, donor bone was inserted into my right arm to help meld the crushed pieces back together. I spent 18 months in rehabilitation and therapy and still have pain and nerve damage in both my arms.

But I never thought much about it.  I am fine, my fingers work, my hands work,  I walk, I talk. I always joke, "We know how the story ends, I survive. I'm right here. " Witnessing this scene, I know. I see.

I feel the impact of a life. Its New Years Eve, she had plans.

And I don't care if she didn't believe in New Year's Resolutions, there's no way that she wasn't thinking about her future, tomorrow, the coming year.  She was on her way somewhere. Someone is waiting for her. Someone is going to get a phone call. People's lives will change forever.

Chloë Rain in her backyard in Seattle, Washington.

Chloë Rain in her backyard in Seattle, Washington.

Everything changes in an instant. Life goes like that. One moment you are here, the next moment you are not. The body is a miracle, the heart pumps, the lungs filter, you never have to think about it.

Until you hit a patch of gravel on the road and you're dead. That's it. New Year's Eve and you're dead.

That's it, life is that miraculous and that fragile.

There are only two ways to live your life. One is as though nothing is a miracle. The other is as though everything is a miracle.
— Albert Einstein

The wind was knocked out of me and my reflex for taking more air into my lungs had been suspended by the hit.

EVERYTHING IS A MIRACLE. There is no other explanation. Before it had just been a convenient saying by an intelligent man, a respected scientist, now it had become an inarguable fact, a law of the universe, a scientific rule. EVERYTHING IS A MIRACLE.

why am I alive chloe rain explore deeply I am alive for a reason

I am alive for a reason. I should have been dead. Why am I alive?

I went to the party that night and swore that I wouldn't be the party guest that kept telling the story of the tragic accident she witnessed on her way to pick up a party gift.  After the ball dropped, I found myself telling the story to my new friend Robin and he, in turn, shared a life changing story of his own.... we were drunk and talking about life and death.  I called the cab company 24 times that night, but in the morning I was sleeping on Robin and Ray's couch in my hot pink party dress.... and as Ray likes to chide me "When I woke up and saw you sleeping there, I knew we were never going to get rid of you."

And that day will forever be the turning point, when everything changed in my adult life. I woke up.

I didn't exactly receive  a clear download from the heavens above with a to do list and a map. But I got the message. "You're alive for a reason. You better damn well figure out what it is, sooner rather than later. How much more time are you gonna waste being half alive?"

Anyone out there wondering "why bother to keep living?" ask yourself the question:

Why am I alive?

and KNOW

There is a reason for your existence.

And if there is breath in your lungs, you haven't fulfilled your mission on Earth.

Time to figure out what you're still doing here, and NOW.

My life and soul’s purpose is dedicated to the Revolution of the human spirit through random acts of intrigue and experiments in joy.

As you turn inward and fall in love with the truth of who you really are, you become whole, despite the brokenness.
— Chloë Rain

 

A lot of people enjoy being dead. But they are not dead, really. They’re just backing away from life. *Reach* out. Take a *chance*. Get *hurt* even.

But play as well as you can. Go team, go! Give me an L. Give me an I. Give me a V. Give me an E.

L-I-V-E. LIVE! Otherwise, you got nothing to talk about in the locker room.
— Maude (character from "Harold & Maude" my favorite movie)

Chloë Rain is a Spiritual Guide & Healer. She founded Explore Deeply™ & The Explore Deeply Movement based on a belief that all beings have a purposeful reason for being here on the planet at this time.

Chloë is a certified Native American Healing Arts Practitioner and an initiate of the Pampamesayok Lineage of Andean Energy Medicine.

She has received professional training and certifications as a Life Coach and Spiritual Mentor, as well as trained in multiple modalities, including Emotional Freedom Technique (EFT), Neuro-linguistic Programming (NLP), Mindfulness Meditation, and Yoga instructor certification.

In 2010 Chloë sought to integrate her passion for life with her creativity, experience of the profound, and eye for the refined and inspired. She founded Explore Deeply™, a unique resource for practical tools for living, divine inspiration, and self-love mastery.

She has had the pleasure of working with women and men all over the globe to heal their relationship with self, love, and prosperity so they can enjoy the happiness they have always wanted, and experience confidence and joy in their lives, relationships and finances. Many of her clients find that their relationships and careers shift dramatically in new and exciting ways after doing this work, creating more personal freedom in their lives.

Chloë works with individuals who may have battled with depression, anxiety, and dissatisfaction in life, who are secretly seeking a spiritual answer to what ails them. You may have tried everything and followed all the rules, and yet you feel like your life was meant for something more.

"Very often, calling it drive and ambition, we become too focused on the tasks in front of us to realize the infinite possibilities that exist for us in each day. We are committed to a certain professional agenda and we tell ourselves that this is all we have energy and time for. 

I have found it takes courage to take the leap of faith, especially in this day and age when everyone has their so called systems for finding your life purpose, meeting your soulmate, and creating the life of your dreams, it can be daunting to listen to the soft voice inside you that is telling you to explore something outside the box.  

Sometimes we find ourselves struggling because we've done everything right and followed all the rules and still we haven't connected to that one thing that makes us thrive, our own unique creative genius, and so we fail to stand out in a crowd. You've first got to take the leap of faith toward your own creative genius and this is where life can get messy. You don't know if you are leaping into the fire or the frying pan, but you can know that if you don't leap, you'll feel a little less alive. When we surrender ourselves to the creative energy of the Universe, we immerse ourselves in the abundant infinite flow. By immersing ourselves in creative flow we are expanding our capacity to receive love and increasing the channels of flow and opportunities.   

When we allow ourselves time to be ourselves, create, and be creative, we make time and energy available to us for our professional pursuits (and everything else!).

Why? Because we feel more alive, more vital, more connected to the flow of the Universe. With this energy we can do amazing things in our lives."  — Chloë Rain