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The Law of the Twinkie: Spiritual Enlightenment & Personal Freedom

Health Mind Happy Soul, Learning to Love Yourself, Life LessonsChloë RainComment

You eat Twinkies and you know they're not good for you, deep down inside you know.....

But you like eating twinkies and so you stay for a while in a state of confusion. You eat twinkies all the time. You think you love twinkies, twinkies make you feel satiated.

But deep down inside you know, something's not right.

One day you're feeling particularly bad about your eating of the Twinkies and so you start to get curious.

You educate yourself on nutrition and you are aware that the combination of flour and sugar has no nutritional value and is high in calories, but you still eat the twinkies.

Then doing more research you become aware that in fact there are worse ingredients in the Twinkies and that you like to numb yourself by eating the twinkies and you feel addicted to the twinkies. But you still eat the Twinkies.

Then you become aware that you numb yourself with food and you feel out of control of your craving because there is an emotional response trigger to not feeling comfortable in your body, so you eat to numb yourself and feel shame around your eating.

But you still eat the twinkies. Then you become aware that you started eating to numb yourself because you were violated as a child and it wasn't safe or comfortable to be in your body, so over eating protects you from being seen, protects you from being violated, numbs you from feeling the emotions in your body.  

Now every time you go to eat the twinkie you have a new insight about the choice you are making and you start to realize that it's really not about the twinkie, it's about how you feel inside your body and what emotions are attached to eating.

From this awareness, you can realize that the twinkie does not have power over you, the twinkie is not smarter than you, and you know that really what is occurring is an emotional trigger that you don't feel safe, you don't want to be seen, and you want to numb out in your body.  

From this place of awareness, you may still eat the twinkie.... the more you do the work the more clearing of the emotional trigger, the less and less the twinkie has power over your choices.

Then one day, it hits you. You no longer want the twinkie. You want to like yourself and feel good in your body. You start making different choices. You start to see the benefits of eating things that make you feel good about your choices instead of the twinkies, one day you even realize you enjoy eating things that make you feel good more than you have ever enjoyed eating twinkies.

Twinkies don’t totally disappear from your life, and every time you come up against the Twinkie you have to make the choice.
— The Law of the Twinkie

You start to feel better in your body. One choice at at time, you start to feel better. If one day you eat the twinkie, ok, no big deal, next time you have the opportunity to make an entirely new and fresh choice.

The key is that the twinkie no longer rules your life and your every decision. You are in control of your choices.

You start to trust yourself. 

Then One Day you realize many days have passed since you even thought of Twinkies, and you laugh at how silly and insignificant the Twinkie really is, and how powerful you have become.

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Awareness is the key to making a different choice. Having awareness is 90% of what is needed to make changes. It is what you do with the awareness is what makes the difference.
Chloë Rain is the Founder of Explore Deeply and the Explore Deeply Movement.

She has had the pleasure of mentoring women and men all over the globe to learn to source their inner power, deepen their relationship to their own guidance, and experience greater love and fulfillment, so they can enjoy the happiness they have always wanted, and have confidence and joy in their lives.

Many of her clients find that their relationships and careers shift dramatically in new and exciting ways after doing this work, creating freedom and fulfillment in their personal and professional lives. To find out more about working with Chloë go → here.

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Search for Self Called Off After 38 Years

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Search for Self Called Off After 38 Years

"I always thought that if I kept searching and exploring, I'd discover who I truly was," said Andrew Speth from his Wrigleyville efficiency.

"Well, I looked deep into the innermost recesses of my soul, I plumbed the depths of my subconscious, and you know what I found? An empty, windowless room the size of an aircraft hangar. From now on, if anybody needs me, I'll be sprawled out on this couch drinking black-cherry soda and watching Law & Order like everybody else."

"Fuck it," he added.

The original article was published in 2005, I'm not sure when it came across my path, but I'm certain it was near the time it was originally published. Read the original article → here

This article has always stood out in my memory. I've gone back to it time and time again.

It has meant different things to me over the years.... I love the sarcasm and the and the picture of him smoking, laying on the couch, totally disgusting and absolutely in a state of utter "giving up"....

My family and friends kept telling me to give up, but I couldn’t believe that my true self was forever lost.
— Andrew Speth

Giving up, is different for me. I haven't given up on greater meaning or purpose, in fact the opposite. 

I gave up trying to be positive. Either you are, or you aren't.  But if I'm always "trying" to be positive. Well damn, that's just exhausting.

18 years on the self help crusade. I have managed to find a bit of happiness and fulfillment. I have had positive days, damn near maybe optimistic.

Only to realize there are new levels of mental, physical, spiritual, and creative inspiration to achieve.

Everything I have gathered from all of  my reading, research, and self exploration boils down to one thing:

No other one person can tell you how to make it happen in YOUR life.

Nothing I found or read from any resource has been able to answer the question of what am "I" supposed to do with MY life and how do I go about doing "it". That's an inside job.

Try to google search that shit.

I can say this with confidence, because I've been actively searching and engaging with this question and answer for 38 years.

This is a constant and ever elusive quest. Its doesn't stop, even when you quit it. It finds you in the alley when you're leaving the bar and snatches your purse and makes you question everything. It finds you on the mountain, it wakes you from your sleep. It shakes you from your blank stare, and pierces the silence.

Last night I gave up, but the world kept turning.

This morning I awoke, and the sun had come up without my effort.

Aren't you exhausted by your constant seeking?

The internal voices were silent.

Since calling off the search, Andrew Speth canceled his yoga classes, turned in his organic co-op membership card, and withdrew his plans to go on a sweat-lodge retreat in Saskatchewan. On Tuesday afternoon, he loaded books by such diverse authors as Ludwig Wittgenstein, Meister Eckhart, and George Gurdjieff into a box labeled "free shit," and left it outside of his apartment beside a trash can.

Speth tours Prague in 1991 at the height of his search.

Speth tours Prague in 1991 at the height of his search.

"The only books I'll be reading from now on are ones that happen to catch my eye in the supermarket checkout line on the few occasions I leave my apartment to buy more Fig Newtons," Speth said.

Speth said he will no longer lament his coding job at Eagle Client Services, but will rather "embrace the fact that I have a job that makes enough money to pay for cable." Additionally, Speth has vowed to marry "the first woman who will have me, whether I love her or not."

Though hardened and haggard from his long search, Speth expressed relief that it was over. Asked if he had any advice for those who are continuing on their own searches, Speth had two words of advice: "Give up."

You just can't take yourself too seriously.

From here on out any and all external guidance will only come from random happenings, serendipitous mistakes, or total fuck ups. I give up the search for the meaning of it all, in order to have the experience of truly living.

I welcome fate, chance, and lovely opportunity. I don't have all of the answers, and I don't want to. 

Sometimes our idea of who we should be, gets in the way of who we really are.

Our purpose, the meaning of it all, is revealed to us one step along the journey at a time. If we’re confused, or feel stuck, or are frustrated because we don’t know what to do next, the thing for us to do is to take the next step, without knowing.
— Chloë Rain
Chloë Rain is the Founder of Explore Deeply and the Explore Deeply Movement.

She has had the pleasure of mentoring women and men all over the globe to learn to source their inner power, deepen their relationship to their own guidance, and experience greater love and fulfillment, so they can enjoy the happiness they have always wanted, and have confidence and joy in their lives.

Many of her clients find that their relationships and careers shift dramatically in new and exciting ways after doing this work, creating freedom and fulfillment in their personal and professional lives. To find out more about working with Chloë go → here.

Please feel free to share content freely from Explore Deeply™. However, please be courteous and link back to the original post, and credit Explore Deeply as well as the writer where applicable. I hope you find many resources here to serve you as you walk your path of purpose.